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So far i've lost 10 pounds making the total of 15 pounds
yay! But i'm trying to break/avoid a weightloss plateau
so i'm eating more calories.
Tomorrow i fast. i'll fast for 2 days and then wednesday
i'll start to eat 500 cals 'til saturday when i'll eat more calories.
Kinda like the 2-4-6-8 diet only my way.
I'm going to do this till april.
wish me luck!
In other news, lately i've being kinda down
and yesterday i cut myself for the first time in 4 + months.
I'm a recovering addict and 3 months ago i lost my sponsor
and now i'm starting to feel lost when it comes to recovery
i'm stuck! I'm not working the steps, which i should.
And yesterday for the first time i started to feel alone and
lost w/out a sponsor and i'm in pain. I actuaclly cried!
And people that knows me knows i don't cry just because...
Now i don't know my future in NA.
What's the point when my network ignores me?
just because i tried to kill myself?
I mean when the most i needed them they banished....
my sponsor too! and she nows what happened when something like this happens!
if you relapse or or try to commit suicide people leaves.....
and now i don't know.....
yay! But i'm trying to break/avoid a weightloss plateau
so i'm eating more calories.
Tomorrow i fast. i'll fast for 2 days and then wednesday
i'll start to eat 500 cals 'til saturday when i'll eat more calories.
Kinda like the 2-4-6-8 diet only my way.
I'm going to do this till april.
wish me luck!
In other news, lately i've being kinda down
and yesterday i cut myself for the first time in 4 + months.
I'm a recovering addict and 3 months ago i lost my sponsor
and now i'm starting to feel lost when it comes to recovery
i'm stuck! I'm not working the steps, which i should.
And yesterday for the first time i started to feel alone and
lost w/out a sponsor and i'm in pain. I actuaclly cried!
And people that knows me knows i don't cry just because...
Now i don't know my future in NA.
What's the point when my network ignores me?
just because i tried to kill myself?
I mean when the most i needed them they banished....
my sponsor too! and she nows what happened when something like this happens!
if you relapse or or try to commit suicide people leaves.....
and now i don't know.....
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